I know you're sick of hearing this but.....

It's over. Gav 'n Jayne are no more.....details follow.

Firstly, I need to point out that I haven't really mentioned Gav lately because I've been trying to pretend for 9 months that it wasn't fading and fizzling and all the other f-words.

I've been poorly with guts again this week and he's not even called or texted me to see if I'm ok, or even just because he's (was) my fella! I've been calling him every evening just to let him know I wouldn't be out.

I asked him to get me some bits and bobs on Tuesday and he sent Jadd, a good friend who happens to live a few doors along form me! When I rang him (Gav) to thank him for at least getting the stuff got he said he hadn't seen much point in seeing me looking rough!

So this afternoon I rang him several times, because it's Saturday and I felt a bit better and wanted to spend some time with him. I got no reply. I assumed he'd been working and left his phone at home.

At 9.20-ish I went to Tesco for an excuse to go out and then went home via the pub.

He was sat there, looking really down. I walked up and asked if he was ok.

"No. No I don't think I am."
"What's up?"
"I don't think I want to see you any more. You're doing my head in lately."
"And how am I doing that?"
"By being ill all the fucking time."
"I'm not ill all the time. I've had a bug this week that's all."
"No. No, you're constantly always ill."

so I said, in a very calm and even in a friendly manner

"And you're constantly always drunk. *kiss on cheek* Goodbye."

I get a text message after I get home...

"And I'm not a nurse."

This bears no relevance to anything I've ever asked of him, being as every single time I've ever had anything wrong with me, ever, he's fucked off!!

Sorry you asked?! I am. It's made me have to actually think about how pissed off I am that I didn't point out to him that he's the one who's fucked up this relationship by being a drunken, irresponsible, narrow-minded, CUNT!

So yeah, bit down, but philosophical, kind of...

(X-ed to LJ)